you make-uh no sens!

ohhhhhh, life.
i want life to take me in a million different directions...as long as i don't become a tiny square of butter on a large piece of bread.
i often want to do this to myself... do a lot of things, keep busy, keep from being too focused on one thing. because if i stayed completely focused on one thing for a long time, i get tired of it. like noodles and sauce or yogurt. (i've eaten that a lot this semester.) or even exercise, softball, piano lessons (which happened like 10 years ago...crazy.)

i want my life to be hectic and make no sense to people around me. i don't want the attention--i'm narcissistic, but not THAT bad. i just do not want to fall into a common pattern, i guess. it's not to spite anyone else, not to spite the towns i no longer hope to live in after graduation. i just want to be that person--that christian--who can reach out to a lot of people in a lot of different ways, whether it be through writing, teaching, mission work, etc. i want to be a well-rounded christian/person/woman (yikes, am i really a woman?), writer...

i don't want to be common.