i am alive!

usually when i have down time, i emerge myself into computer world...aka facebook world, youtube world, picture-stalking world, people-stalking world, poetry writing world...
not when i'm sick.
i had the flu this past weekend and it was disastrous. my chest felt soooo freakin weird--all tight and raspy. i felt like i'd run a marathon in freezing cold weather like the time i had to pitch when there was snow and ice on the ground, 27 degrees outside in the middle of the day. i couldn't feel my fingers or hands or even elbows or shoulders. but this time, the flu BURNED my lungs.
and then that stupid nasal swab test.
i tested my pinky finger, to see how far up it would go. not even close to that skinny Olive-Oil representation of a Q-tip, which I'm grateful for its skinniness, but still--I felt like I was being embalmed by Egyptians, you know how they stick a hook up the nose to slide out the brain.
in other words, the flu sucks. as if my head didn't hurt enough...
but the point is that i barely touched my computer. i allowed myself a bit of a break--from school, from the electronic communication world, and i let myself breathe. I watched Lost like a madwoman--in 3 days, I went through 2 and a half seasons--and I also did some more reflection time, and a little more God time.