frame of mind

one of my favorite lyrics is by ingrid michaelson in her song "keep breathing."

"the storm is calling but i don't mind.
people are dying, i close my blinds.
all that i know is i'm breathing.
i want to change the world, instead i sleep.
i want to believe in more than you and me."

i don't know, maybe these lyrics seem completely simple and not that great, but to me, they are so honest. 1.) first of all, i love storms. i love the energy and emotion behind storms...the elements are so layered and dramatic, and i think that's why we as humans identify so much with the weather. on a rainy day, maybe we're a little mellow or blue. stormy day, we're scared or something. sunny day is supposed to mean happiness. but it's because weather has layers--it's this atmospheric, choreographic dance...layers of dramatic effect and it's just moving and powerful.
2.)the second line is amazing to me...honestly, i won't even try to provide commentary.
3.)third line...sometimes, my brain becomes so mushy, so cluttered, so overwhelmed that all i feel like i ACTUALLY know is that i am alive and breathing.
4.) MY LINE/STORY OF MY LIFE. i want to be this amazing, change-the-world person, but half the time i feel like i'm so caught up in how to make things better that i don't actually do anything...it's like i'm sleeping through papers and even my own spirituality. then again, i feel that sometimes, change is such a gradual process that as we're changing, we don't realize it. i hope so anyway.
5.) i want to believe in more than you and me... you know, i see this as a love line. but i see this as a "let's look beyond our own self-awarness and do something" line. and it makes me think of God. of my struggling, stifled Christian spirituality. i want to believe in more than myself, more than you, more than anyone...because something is terribly lacking.

we all need work...not sleeping through our lives, not ignoring important issues, not dodging difficult things to which we can ACTUALLY contribute.